So as previously mentioned, I am at this moment, only technically married to Wilson - and just writing that sentence is surreal to me. He has been such a huge part of my life for 8 years that I can't really comprehend that we will not be growing old together.
The process has started - lawyers, real estate assesments, financial discussions, Arthur discussions and we are being very mature about things (so far), but still I am overwhelmed at times with memories, what-would have been wishes and dreams. And to tell you the truth - that really sucks!
I do know that the next phase of my life is all about me and that is REALLY hard to comprehend. Having been a 'we' for so long, being back to 'me' is seemingly unfathomable right now. I am trying not to get overwhelmed by the massive amount of changes that are a-coming but right now I feel like I am lost on a raft in the ocean being buffeted by very large waves.
However, I have learned one thing in this process - I really liked being someone's wife and hope with all of my badly bruised heart that it will happen again. Right now I am trying to take the words of Dr. Seuss to heart - Don't cry because it is over, Smile because it happened.
Still - should anyone want to come and kick Wilson in the shin for me, I wouldn't say no!
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I, unfortunately, can relate to your posts...having been through it recently myself. Keep your head up and stay strong...it does get better, I promise!
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